Face your Fears
We do not know what can happen and simple things can be so difficult sometimes. Like getting out of house. Getting out to metro. Travelling in metro. Moving out of a room. Meeting many people in crowd. This all can be scary. It is fear. This is fear. The act of writing is also not easy. But this is not fear. Some tasks are easy and some are difficult. What is fear? Fear is a feeling that is needed to be faced everyday to reach a higher potential and where person feels that they have reached a level.
This could be everyday living and work. Can there be a break? Of course a person does not have to face their fears all the time. It has to be done in capacities where fear does not overwhelm too much and make life harder and harder. If a person knows that he is feeling fear and he knows that he can stand up in the situation and there is possibility that it can overcome them, then sometimes it is possible one may not challenge the fear. It is ok to bypass and invest energy somewhere else. It is like out of 5 times if 3 times fear has been faced and lived, then it would be fine. One can relax.
Seeing other person's small capacities in action
Once reached a point when one can face the other person. Then he can notice small capacities in other person. like she is standing up. like she is moving here and there. Like she is talking. Then there is also multi tasking. This all capacities can be observed but without any distortions or movement with the one. If one is sitting and would see other person moving around in library then one may feel awe or intimated. "She can move, why can't I move." There is jealousy. Yes there are feelings. And this is where feelings are born. There is doubt in one's capacity whether one can do it. One has done it before, and so there is extreme possibility that he can do again. Instead of challenging this doubt, one can look at the feelings and also could appreciate that other person has such capacities.
Simply saying 'Thanks' in the evening. The gratitude. For reflecting that it was difficult and we lived along and fought them. The fears and reached somewhere. We know it was hard for you. And it is still for you, You still have been trying hard. We want to say "Thank you" to you. Besides many difficulties you have kept on going. We thank you.